I thought I would add that photo from my NHS file as there seem to be lots of people on the internet who claim to be psychopaths more as some sort of wish rather than being diagnosed by a professional.

Malignant narcissism is a psychological syndrome comprising an extreme mix of narcissism, antisocial behavior, aggression, and sadism. Grandiose, and always ready to raise hostility levels, the malignant narcissist undermines families and organizations in which they are involved, and dehumanizes the people with whom they associate.

The terms malignant narcissist and psychopath are sometimes used interchangeably because there is little to clinically separate the two. Individuals with narcissistic personality disorder, malignant narcissism, and psychopathy all display similar traits which are outlined in the Hare Psychopathy Checklist. The test has 20 items scored on a three-point scale, with a rating of 0 if it does not apply at all, 1 if there is a partial match or mixed information, and 2 if there is a reasonably good match. With a maximum score of 40, the cut-off for the label of psychopathy is 30 in the United States and 25 in the United Kingdom. High scores are positively associated with measures of impulsivity and aggression, Machiavellianism, persistent criminal behavior, and negatively associated with measures of empathy and affiliation.
Malignant narcissism is highlighted as a key area in the study of mass murder, sexual, and serial murder.
Malignant narcissism is a hypothetical, experimental diagnostic category. Narcissistic personality disorder is found in the Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders (DSM-IV-TR), while malignant narcissism is not. As a hypothetical syndrome, malignant narcissism could include aspects of narcissistic personality disorder (NPD) alongside a mix of antisocial, paranoid and sadistic personality disorder traits. The importance of malignant narcissism and of projection as a defense mechanism has been confirmed in paranoia, as well as “the patient’s vulnerability to malignant narcissistic regression”.

Charming bunch of cunts !

I wonder who the malignant narcissist really is.

The psychiatrist ? On this particular appointment named as DR Pukstys who I have been informed left the service immediatly after my appointment. Perhaps it was something I said. He asked me what I thought my issues were. I have many, but took a punt on trust and told him I was sexually abused by my mother. My mother also spent my childhood psychologically abusing me which I didn’t mention. Dr pukstys asked me if I had heard of MGTOW. No I hadn’t. It’s a youtube site, Men going there own way, it might help you he says.

I check it out at home after the weirdest appointment ever. I went to a MGTOW site and checked its introductory video which i thought very weird & mysoginistic.

Dr Pukstys response to someone he diagnoses a Malignant narcissist and a danger to the public when they disclose they were sexually abused by their mother.

Is Dr Pukstys taking the piss ?

Is that appropriate ?

Please check the site out for yourself

And why is an NHS psychiatrist dishing out a diagnosis that is “hypothetical” and not in the DSM ? (Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders) Trust me I have asked, NHS England, the Tavistock and portman, MIND, The local Clinical commissioning group, Royal college of psychiatry, The General medical council, PALS patient liason and advice, some other mental health support pages, some solicitors, everywhere you would think to ask and I got Sent round in circles and none the freaking wiser.

Along side malignant narcissism there are previous diagnosis from a decade ago of Depression, agoraphobia, anxiety, Borderline personality disorder, Anti social personality disorder, Narcissistic personality disorder & paranoid personality disorder.

While in the process of digesting that little cluster of personality fuck ups in the 4 weeks between my appointments I watched a tv prog on Broadmoor. Broadmoor being the NHS run high security psychiatric hospital where Sir Jimmy Saville was allowed to roam free with his own set of keys and a nice cosy flat provided to him at tax payer expense within the grounds. Funny how all these clever psychiatrists who can diagnose me with the most stigmatising crap inside an hour couldn’t spot anything wrong with that cunt who they all cosied up to for years.

Anyways, the prog on NHS run Broadmoor had a spot with professor Tony Madden who was introduced as the head of the personality disorder unit. He was chatting about people like Ian Brady the moors murderer, Peter sutcliffe, Dennis Neilson and the like. He described them as “Psychopaths.”

“We don’t use the diagnosis Psychopath any more, but the “Holy Trinity” Of Anti social personality disorder, paranoid personality disorder and Narcisstic personality disorder are what makes up a psychopath.

Hmmm. Did you spot it ?

I got those three diagnosis 10 years ago. I did ask at the time to the diagnosing psychiatrists if I was a psychopath. No answer. I asked again and again.

They avoided answering.

So to leave someone with a belief and not disavow them of a wrong belief seems to mean you want them to hold that belief. It also seems extremely cruel.

How should I feel about that ?

How would you feel about that ?

Well it is shocking, even a bit traumatizing and most definitely confusing. Especially when you get this information indirectly. I was already struggling with the personality disorder diagnoses as none of the psychiatrists had explained them to me. NICE ( National Institute of clinical excellence) guidelines suggest they should explain diagnosis at the bottom of each NHS web page. I pointed this failure out and got treated like a trouble maker.

I looked up psychopathy on the NHS website. No results except for Anti social personality disorder.

I’m not a psychopath !

But then do psychopaths know they are psychopaths ?

Honestly I am not a psychopath.

Does it matter what I think ?


Suddenly you realize, that nothing you do or say matters. It is a license for people to completely negate your sense of self.

Signs and Symptoms of Psychopathy

The signs and symptoms of psychopathy are identified most commonly in scientific studies by Hare’s 20-item Psychopathy Checklist-Revised. This checklist identifies the following as the symptoms and signs of psychopathy:

  1. Superficial charm and glibness
  2. Inflated sense of self-worth
  3. Constant need for stimulation
  4. Lying pathologically
  5. Conning others; being manipulative
  6. Lack of remorse or guilt
  7. Shallow emotions
  8. Callousness; lack of empathy
  9. Using others (a parasitic lifestyle)
  10. Poor control over behavior
  11. Promiscuous sexual behavior
  12. Behavioral problems early in life
  13. Lack of realistic, long-term goals
  14. Being impulsive
  15. Being irresponsible
  16. Blaming others and refusing to accept responsibility
  17. Having several marital relationships
  18. Delinquency when young
  19. Revocation of conditional release
  20. Criminal acts in several realms (criminal versatility)

And it is there, in black and white, on a page, in an official file, written by people who no one ever questions and everyone believes.

People now have a mandate to dismiss you and interfere with your life. I have discovered that I have no human rights. None. Liberty the human rights organisation dismissed me and my concerns.

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